Tuesday, August 29, 2006

wasnt the most pleasant of things to have during ur chem SPA. it was a frigging stomachache. my gosh. that 10 mins i shortchanged myself with could have salvaged some marks. but den again, 4get it la. dun think about it. u ll only make urself more ji dong.

while certain people hu know me will probably be proud to know i m not bitching to the whole world about my SPA, i guess its just me to dwell on things longer, to go thru them in my mind, to see wad has been, wad could have been, wad it should have been and where do i go from here.

u know, its like everytime i pass by barker. just get this feeling of reminiscence. den u just see images in ur mind about the things u did with those people and how great it all was. and den u just cant help but wish that they would never end. i miss barker man.. really wanna go back and visit. its like even seeing mr ng eng chin on the screen of PM lees rally made me think about those days where i was standing with my class, probably, talking with reuben or marcus or hong, and u would hear him go like 'i draw the line very clearly'. but den again, if we never move on, we live in the past, we might never get the chance to experience so much more den we already have. still theres always this mixed feeling about it dun u think. happy that ur moving on, yet the pain of seperation and leaving the past behind that ur never really gonna forget.

and i guess that same feeling of reminiscence kinda holds for everything else. u see stuff and the video archive, the image archive in ur mind just unravel themselves once again. and its just going to touch stuff in ur heart.

den again, maybe its just me, to always looks so much and think so much into things even thou they have comed to pass. just the more sentimental side i guess. but den again, memories are something we can never really erase.

i dunno when this feeling will fade. i guess i ll just chuck it at the side of my mind, not think about it and move on.

excessive writing is killing my hand....and i think i need a new skin.

|cowpoo| 8:15 PM|

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